| I'm starting to realize that hardly anyone that was on here when I was active on this updates anymore. That makes me a bit sad. But i suppose a lot of new people are on here, so i suppose i'll have to go add some people! i need support, and i want to support others because thats what keeps me motivated!
So.. about this boy. Theres a guy, we'll call him "L", in my english and choir. He's pretty cute, and he's really nice. We talked the first few days of school, and a crush started to develope, and because he talked to me so much... i thought maybe, just MAYBE he felt the same. well... then i find out... he's a cheerleader..... fuck. is he gay? i have no idea..... he doesn't really seem like it... but it makes me nervous. i added him on facebook, and facebook stalked him a bit. he doesn't have a relationship status, and he doesn't have a "interested in" either.... which makes me nervous. He's also a fan of the movie Bring it on.... which could just mean that he likes cheerleading... but... that movies not the most "straight" guy kinda movie... so i don't know. Im a bit stressed out about that :( but.. on the plus side.. for english we have to do these partner conferences, and i was worried because I'm not very outgoing and don't know many people in my english class. So i didn't know what i was going to do for a partner. well... the other day he was sitting behind me and was like "hey holly.. do you have a partner?" and i was like. ummm... no, i dont. and he asked me if i wanted to be his partner and was like "don't worry about signing up or anything i'll take care of that, just let me know when you're free" ahhh... it made me feel good that he asked me.
am i pathetic? probably...haha. i'm just verrrry much so not used to getting attention from guys... come to think of it.. i have NEVER gotten attention from guys... except for that one that I liked at subway, and thoought maybe he liked me too, but nothing happened with that, and now im in college so we're 4 hours apart.
anyway..... what do you guys think? does he sound gay? it wouldnt surprise me if he was.... that would be just my luck :( but.. i have more things than that to worry about right now.. so im not worrying too much about it just yet!
hmph... soooo.... eating... bah, it was a joke today. I think tomorrow i'm really starting my hardcore diet, and im going to try to go as hardcore as i can. Since my classes are all pretty much in the middle of the day... im going to eat twice a day. on mon/wed/fri i'll eat breakfast... either a granola bar or a half of a poptart. and then on tues/thurs i have class at 11 so i'll eat lunch before class... which will either be ramen (hopefully half a package.. because half is 190 cals, and thats plenty) or easy mac.... because those are they only 2 things i have haha. and then for dinner everynight i will eat a sub from our sub place at school, and a small soda (either diet pepsi or water) and that will hopefully be it! Right now I eat a huge cookie and have a mt dew every monday and wednesday between one of my classes... thats not gonna happen anymore. and almost EVERY night I get a frappe or dreamisicle from our coffee shop (they're amazing) but cant anymore... so i think i'll treat myself to like... one a week. maybe every wednesday night or something.
and i'm also going to start going to the gym every tuesday and thursday. i know its only twice a week... but im going to start easy, and then maybe add more days later... but we'll see for now. and since i get done with class at 1:50, it'll be nice that i'll still have a lot of time afterwards to do things.
so! thats my plan of attack right now. we'll see how it goes. hopefully better than it has. i'll keep updating. i'd like to keep updating a lot because it keeps me motivated, but i also reeeally like getting feedback, and i always respond, i don't just ask for it for no reason, i love the motivation.
so... lets do this ladies :)
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| Cookie and a mt dew every monday and wednesday...
This traditions changing. |
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| Let's do this one more time..
College has been going just as I hoped. I've been making friends and having a good time. The one thing that hasn't been going my way?.... My weight. I need to change that and it will change.
Im sitting in bio right now and I can't even focus... I'm so stresse out because I have a lot to do but I think is mostly because of my stupid stupid weight. I have a story about a boy and I'll post about it later. But I should probably get back to taking notes... Ugh. I'd love some support CEO
you girls! I hope you all have a great day! :) |
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